Wednesday, December 31, 2008
This has been a hell of a year. Since I try to live my life in the moment I don't really want to rehash the past.
I end this year with a vision of a story of my life. A powerful vision. It begins with tears and a powerful contridiction.
I ask the universe to guide my decisions in the year to come, I ask for peace for myself and my girlfriend. I ask to keep the suffering tolerable.
And saying this......let the chaos dust rain down.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
The thing is...I don't sit. I mean I don't sit the way I want to in my head. I DO sit in the sense that I live presently every moment of the day as best I can. This is why I reap the benefits of regular sitting without sitting I believe.
But I will sit again. Regularily I am sure.
I changed the format of my Eric Omega blog. I have actually been changing everything around me as the year ends. Removing old pictures and items, inserting some new (always with the materialism). My current pencil at work is 16" long. Nice. And like that. I am thinking of sharing this blog to many others as well. Currently, I believe, there are only 3 people who know of this place. And 2 of those, I am pretty certain, have completely forgotten about it anyway. Which leaves M. Hi M! The question to myself is this - why do I feel the need to share this blog with others? Ego plain and simple? Look at me? Watch me go? Or is it something else. Just a simple desire to share some creativity. I supposed this goes both ways really.
I could perform another "social experiment" and see how many people do not respond to my blog. My photo essay contest turned into that. 75% of people invited did not show. Even I think that is lame.
I'll come back to this later.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
Sunday, December 14, 2008
It, the ego, will make me be so negative. It is as if I am possessed.
The moment I speak some shit I am thinking "why in the hell would I
say or think that???".
I wish to stop this maddness.
Nothing can touch me. Nothing can harm me. All bad, all suffering,
comes within on me.